I don’t adjust well to change; it’s something that I am aware of and therefore make every effort to improve that part of me but mostly I’m just a creature of habit and really struggle with any type of change. Even small changes like doing a different workout on a different day than I usually do or mixing up my morning routine can really throw me off for the whole day. I try hard not to let it control me and I try very hard to remain a flexible person but bottom line is I thrive on consistency.
Needless to say marriage has really disrupted my normal way of living; but don’t get me wrong, it’s for the better I am just having a much harder time than other’s settling into it. Adjusting not only to a new house and new bathroom and kitchen and new routine but also living WITH someone else is hard.
It’s hard to wake up at 5:00am when my husband gets to sleep for at least 2 more hours. It’s hard to try and be quiet as I shower and blow dry my hair (and let’s face it, that’s just not quiet at all!) and it’s hard getting dressed with very little light so as not to disturb him any more than I have to.
It’s hard to not have my doggies with me in the mornings since they now sleep in their kennel and it’s hard to adjust to a new kitchen and just my overall morning routine.
And all of this has really just left me feeling out of sorts during my whole day. I’ve been a mess and all over the place ever since we got back from our honeymoon and our trip to Indianapolis. I haven’t been able to settle into a new to me routine where I feel comfortable and productive and like I’m on top of my day. Instead I feel like most days I’m just dragging through my days trying to stay afloat so that I can try again tomorrow.
For example, I have the ability and convenience of riding public transportation to and from work, it generally takes about a half hour longer each way but its cheap and effective and I’m able to read and relax. But lately I’ve been opting to sleep the extra half hour and then hurry out the door and drive into work, barely making here on time each day, not a great way to start my day. It’s nice to have that little bit of extra sleep and it’s nice to have a little bit more flexibility than the train schedule allows but the gas adds up and I feel so much better when I stick with my normal routine of riding the train that I really need to not drive into work.
Subsequently when one part of my day is out of whack the rest seems to follow suit, for example my eating habits. While I have cleaned up my diet tremendously from what it was while on our honeymoon and Indy trip it still isn’t perfect. I find myself snacking a little more than normal for that extra pick-me-up that is required due to the way my day started. And I am definitely drinking way too many calories! I have been holding strong to my New Year’s Resolution of no soda for a whole year, it’s been 6 whole months and I haven’t had any at all! But the sweet tea has become my drug of choice to get me through my days and it has GOT to stop! Starting next week on July 1st I’m making a change there for sure.
And working out, well that’s getting better but it’s still not great. This past winter and spring I had a weekly schedule all nailed down that worked great for me. I had gym time, running, cross training and it all fit and I made it happen. But now that we have switched gyms I’m still feeling that out and trying to find a new normal at this gym. I am also trying to be flexible in my workouts to help Alex find a routine as well so that’s make it hard to find my own balance. I’m trying to take advantage of working out with Alex while we can (before he starts law school this fall) so I’m trying not to stress too much about it and enjoy our time to work out together but I am really craving my pre-wedding body and motivation. Thankfully on July 1st I start half marathon training again and that will also be the pre-training for my late fall marathon that I will tell you about later this week, so hopefully things will start falling into place.
Anyways, all this post really is, is me complaining about how my type-A personality doesn’t like the lack of control I seem to have on my new routine. I know that I will work through it and that I will find that new normal very soon but for the moment I am frustrated. I love being married and sharing my life, I really, really do; I could not ask for a better husband who affords me the time to work these things out and who is patient with me when I complain about how hard adjusting seems to be. He doesn’t take things personally and for that I am very grateful. Honestly part of my problem is I like spending so much time with him, I’d much rather do that than go to bed at a decent hour or go for a run or wake up an extra half hour earlier but life must go on and I know that eventually we will find the rhythm that works for us.
Are there any married people out there who had a hard time adjusting to their new life like me or am I the only one?
Any tips on how to make it easier?