Well what a week this has already been…2013 hasn’t been so great to me just yet. I am currently on my third day home from work; I don’t remember the last time I called in sick and I’m pretty sure I’ve never been sick for 3 days straight. My last workout was last Wednesday and the verdict is still out on whether or not I’ll be heading to the gym tonight or not. I know that I left you all last Friday saying I wasn’t sure how much I wanted to write and then I am quiet for nearly a week, that wasn’t my intention at all – in fact I still do want to write it’s just been a rough start to 2013.
To clarify I do like blogging and keeping track of things and mostly the pressure I feel to blog really just comes from myself, I’m a type-A and therefore I want to be perfect at everything I do, including blogging. But then my workouts weren’t going as planned and I wasn’t getting into my running and working out groove like I wanted, add to that there are so many unknowns to what the second half of my year holds for me and I just felt overwhelmed. I don’t like not having definite plans and not knowing just what I’ll be doing, it scares me. The thought of getting married is scary enough add to that the possibility of moving (and not just moving in with Alex), Alex going to law school and me supporting him through that, along with a tight budget and me possibly going back to school as well all overwhelms me. And I think it just all came to a head on Friday and I felt the need to vent on my blog.
But don’t get me wrong, this year is going to be an exciting year and a year of growth and new experiences and I’m excited but it will be different and it will be a year of learning and trusting as well.
So all of that being said with being sick and overwhelmed I haven’t worked out in a week. Initially I was frustrated having skipped a workout last Thursday night and then skipping my 8 mile run on Saturday but I told myself one workout would be ok and those 8 miles could be done on Sunday instead. Well Sunday came and I felt even worse and Monday was worse and yesterday was the worst day yet. I’m not sure if it’s just me or everyone else but I always feel like the first few weeks into marathon training are really hard; I’m always super motivated but for some reason it really takes me a while to get into the groove and make every workout. And being sick just throws a huge wrench into all of that.
So where does that leave me for my races this weekend? Well honestly I’m not really sure. I am still racing though but I’m just not sure HOW I’ll be racing. My plan all along has been to shoot for a 2:15 half on Sunday and I’ve been doing speed work in hopes of pursuing that. I also was considering trying for a 5K PR since it’s the only 5K I have plans of running all year and I had wanted to PR in each distance this year. The 5K PR is probably still a pretty easy feet, it’s been more than a year since I’ve run a 5K and since I’ve gotten considerably faster even in the last 3-4 months then I figured that as long as I give myself a couple of warm up miles I can pull off a PR.
But now my question becomes just how hard do I push on Saturday? Do I just go all out and be happy with a really nice 5K PR or do I push just enough for a PR and save some in the tank to try for a 2:15 half as well? Being sick for a week is not something I’ve dealt with so I am not really sure how it’s going to affect me this weekend. Do I think I can still PR missing a whole week of workouts, sure, it’s possible, but it’s probably not likely. But my next problem becomes that since I want to PR in each distance this year this is really one of my only chances to do that. The next three half marathons I have are for fun with other people and so I don’t plan on racing for a PR. And looking forward to my fall racing schedule I don’t have any half marathons lined up because I want to try racing some different distances and I’m not sure I can fit a half into my schedule.
I realize that all of these “issues” are really just trivial things and whatever happens on Sunday happens. In fact it’s supposed to rain in Houston on Sunday and while I love running in the rain I’m not sure that along with my currently sickly state are going to help me get that PR. But we shall see.
Regardless of what this weekend holds I am excited about going to Houston; my best friend Karen is going with me so we will have fun girls time and I won’t be all alone. I also have plans to meet up with a few bloggers that I’ve been following and tweeting/chatting with and so I’m excited for that. Oh, AND Ryan Hall is going to be at the expo as well, so you know I am stoked for that! I’ve already met Kara Goucher so meeting Ryan Hall will nearly complete my goal of meeting all my running idols. And if any of you are running either the 5K or the half (or full) this weekend and don’t know about the blogger meet up then let me know and I’ll get you details, I’d love to meet you. And if there is anyone that plans on running the half and would like to volunteer to help me reach my goal of 2:15 by pacing me you are more than welcome…
So who knows, all I know is thankfully I’m feeling a bit better today than I have in the last 3 days and I am hopeful for a good weekend. I plan to resume my regularly scheduled blogging next week by starting my weekly marathon training posts and of course race recaps and more running thoughts. I also want to start talking about healthy eating and some of the books I’ve been reading as well as do some relationship posts. Tomorrow I will actually be doing a guest post about my relationship with Alex so be sure and stop by tomorrow for the link to my guest post!