I’m still lost when it comes to nutrition. It’s probably because I’m making it harder than it has to be. But why are there so many options? I feel that even in my confusion, I am educated slightly more than the average human being on what “proper nutrition” means, but I am still far from understanding. I have a good idea about carbohydrates and fats and proteins; yet I still can’t figure out how to fuel MY body. So it becomes trial and error, which is also frustrating but a reality of the situation.
There is so much in the world of food that I just don’t know where to begin. I do know that I want to continue this healthy lifestyle I am creating by making sure I am taking care of myself from the inside out. I do know that I try to be healthy without being extreme. And I also know that this is going to become an ever-evolving area in my life.
So all that being said here is my decision for now on this topic:
I still need to actively learn and pursue healthy eating habits. It is so hard to do in a world of pleasure and instant gratification where food has become pleasure, a self-identifier and a reward. But if I maintain my neutral stance that food CAN be pleasurable at appropriate times but fueling my body is the main goal then I can continue to pursue this.
I will be counting calories (the horror of my decision to cave, I know!). Bottom line here, I NEED to know! It is apparent that my portions are completely out of line. I can put healthy things into my body, but just because they are healthy doesn’t mean I have an unlimited outlet for them. This needs to be modified and I need to learn what it truly takes to make my body work. I already write down everything I eat every day anyways, why not take it one step further and find out how many calories that truly is?
I have found a wonderful website that has made calculating calories burned and consumed very easy. With the internet counting calories and knowing exactly what you are eating is a wonderful reality. It’s annoying, yes, but completely easy to do. So for now, that’s what I will do. Like everything else in my life, it won’t be perfect, but I am using this as a learning tool.
I have fears of being starving all the time. I have fears of never eating anything fun. And I’m scared I will be horrible at this and just completely give it up.
However, the past two days since I’ve started counting, I haven’t been hungry once. I actually ate out last night and enjoyed sweet tea and still stayed within my calorie limit. And so far, after two days, I’m not horrible. But as I’ve said before, this will be an ever evolving area of learning and experimenting in my life, so stay tuned.